Tuesday, May 29, 2007

tea and biscuits

I remember Sunday afternoons at 5 o'clock
we used to have cake.
I miss those days as I've grown up
I'll take a Sunday off and bring those memories back
I put the kettle on but it's not the same.

Monday, May 28, 2007

Fixing the world one broken wheel at a time

One night to take it to the grave
back to ones and wait for 2
he's in the mirror and desperate to leave
his reflection on the floor
walk out the door
down to the road that leads to wanting more.

Eyes scratch even when they are closed
like a bleeding heart that chose
she's got her heart on her sleeve
good intentions intact for the vow she seeks
vow not to speak
speak of the life she vows to lead

lead the teenage revolution
into the world's pollution.
The headache of teenage angst can't be cured with a single pill
take the shortcut and watch the clock count down
backwards & forwards
which way will you fall out?
fall out of the middle to nothing you started with.
To the end of the line to collect what's left of the child
I'm a starry eyed child in adults clothing
my teenage years were lost in transition
of my so-called novel for you to read
You're the reflection of life's infection;
teenage wasteland and wasted youth
I lived 15, I'm now 25
what's my excuse?

Sunday, May 27, 2007

fairground

I said "I hate rides. I could stay on the bumper cars all day long."
He said "You wouldn't want to go on rides with me as I go on all the fast ones."
I said "Every group needs someone to watch the bags and wallets."

ME

I like my reflection
I have blue eyes
I have small hands
I am 25.
I don't like heights
I am blonde
I've been to florida
I've never been quite fond.
I've never heard the perfect song or met the perfect person
I live under a tarp
I am up & down
I live happily ever after dark.
I like playing songs over and over again
I leave dishes in the sink
I am shy
I don't care what you may think
I am below that, I am above this
I am never around
I am a curse
I can be a teenage drama queen: friend or enemy?
I know I am loved
I am me

baby girl (dear mum + dad)

Flick my eyes into their sockets
to remind myself I'm still alive
Tongue stuck to the roof of my mouth
I'm better with a pen and better off never to forget
sunny days on summer days
outside doesn't reflect the weather inside my mind
You know me better than I know myself
You always pick me up whenever I fall down
when I cry, you are the shoulder
when I laugh, you supply the joke
The child I was is in the past
The teenager I was didn't last
into the person I am now
Where would I be without you around?

Whatever - By Oasis

This song never gets old every time I hear it and makes me want to play the violin:


I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want
I'm free to say whatever I
Whatever I like
If it's wrong or right it's alright
Always seems to me
You only see what people want you to see
How long's it gonna be
Before we get on the bus
And cause no fuss
Get a grip on yourself
It don't cost much
Free to be whatever you
Whatever you say
If it comes my way it's alright
You're free to be wherever you
Wherever you please
You can shoot the breeze if you want
It always seems to me
You only see what people want you to see
How long's it gonna be
Before we get on the bus
And cause no fuss
Get a grip on yourself
It don't cost much
I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want
Here in my mind
You know you might find
Something that you
You thought you once knew
But now it's all gone
And you know it's no fun
Yeah I know it's no fun
Oh I know it's no fun
I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want
I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want
Whatever you do
Whatever you say
Yeah I know it's alright
Whatever you do
Whatever you say
Yeah I know it's alright

Saturday, May 26, 2007

my pencils are all different colours

I found a lucky penny
it didn't give me any luck
there's a ringing in my ear
my life is on the other line
my new shoes aren't for walking
my sneakers are purple, my others were green
open up my blue eyes
pull back my yellow hair
I've packed a water bottle
I won't forget my keys

Holiday

My toes in the sand
I'm afraid of the ocean so I'll stay ashore
ice cream and white shorts don't mix
sunblock became my guardian against everything I don't want my skin to adopt.

Sandcastles and sea shells, the kids and a ball.
I could lie here forever with no where else to care about
The blue sky keeps me smiling
I don't want it to end but thats what holidays are for
just an escape from the real world until its time to head back
in the hotel my suitcase calls my name

Music and Lyrics

some of my choice soundtrack music to listen to as I'm writing:

Panic! At The Disco
Fall Out Boy
The Academy Is..
Dido
Ben Folds Five
David Gray
Aqualung
I Am Sam Soundtrack
Wicker Park Soundtrack
Great Expectations Soundtrack
Garden State Soundtrack
The Last Kiss Soundtrack
Keane
Starsailor
Corrine Bailey Rae
The Music
Girl, Interrupted Soundtrack
Johnny Cash
The Corrs
Natalie Imbruglia

For my 'break time': Introducing Joss Stone - Joss Stone and 'Life In Cartoon' - Mika

This list changes so often, depending on the mood, but they're some of my most played.

Friday, May 25, 2007

L.O.V.E

My Sisters are my best friends
My Sisters are my worst enemies
My Brother is younger than me, my brother is older than me
My Brothers are funnier than me
My Mum is my own guardian angel
My Mum is a woman not to be messed with
My Dad is my own superhero
My Dad is always there to end a fight
My Nan is watching me from above
My Nan was never short of sharing her love for us all
My Granddad is a wonderful giant with a kind heart
My Granddad says 'fuck them all'.
My Friends are on the lookout for me
My Friends will never let me loose sight
They've seen me when I am great
They've seen me when I am bad
They've seen me when I was a baby
They will see me as a lady
They will know if I lie, cheat, steal, soar, fall, love, lose love,
wonder if I am ok alone, don't pick up the phone, on my way home.
They will see me through everything life will throw in my way

when it rains it pours

Standing in the pouring rain
Never seems to end
I need an umbrella to get me out
Will the sun surface again?
I’m diving my way into destruction,
Give me a hand and guide the way
Finding my way through the dark
Back to where I’ll stay
My umbrella’s broken again
Can I use yours?
It always take so long to find another
You always see past my flaws

all the glue in the world couldn't hold this together

take this
take that
give in, get out before it all begins,
before it could ever really begin.
You’ve been here before, standing in the same spot wishing for the next step.
She says 'I'm not interested that way'. U say 'thanks for the kiss' and you’re on your way.
Back to square one, before anything could ever begin,
before anything began, before those thoughts ran through your mind, exploding like a star.
What's the point? To live, take a chance on something like never before?
It's overrated, you’ll be fine on your own.
Will U be fine on your own? we all worry about being alone.
we all worry about going mad.
Mad by yourself, mad for someone who doesn't feel the same way.
It's overrated, you’ve got yourself.
Thanks for the kiss, it was only a kiss. was it only a kiss?
Shake it off, walk it off, give yourself a break.
get a life support that doesn't include the thought of her.
the thought of her makes you smile, wonder.
wonder why the hell nothing came about, went out and fell to the floor.
Take yourself off the market, take yourself to the dock.
throw her into the deepest part of the ocean, that's where she‘ll find you.
standing over the dock, watching her sink.
watching her stink of her own ego as she work the room into a frenzy.
You’ll be in the back, watching your reflection.
Overrated she. She’s not you and she'll never get you.
She pulls the trigger all wrong,
You’re loaded and ready to face the world once again
U can't stand on your own two feet, but it's worth a shot
A shot You’ll take to shake off the thought
pull the trigger in a perfect world.